Sunday, November 28, 2010

Planning for the future.

There is one thing that Jack and I have been really good at though all of this... it's planning. Ha! What a joke right?

Let me give you an example of what it's like to plan things around infertility:

- You ask your girlfriend who just got engaged and asked you to be the Matron of Honor in her wedding if it will be alright if you're pregnant and standing up next to her because you know, that could happen... 13 months away. (By the way, they got married 6 months ago. I'm still not pregnant.)
- You pull out your calendar months in advance and figure out what cycle day you are likely to be on while you're on a vacation just to see if you can take that vacation or not.
- You spend $100's extra a month on rent for years because you "need a second bedroom for the nursery".
- You sell off your favorite toy vehicles because you need to plan for a family friendly vehicle.
- You buy a bench seat for your big truck instead of the 2 bucket seats so that you will be able to put a car seat in between and safely have your car seat ride in the truck.
- You plan every single time that would be the "perfect time" to announce to your whole family that you're expecting.
- You constantly hold of purchasing those big items, because you might need that money to buy things for a nursery.
- You are always non-comital when it comes to making plans of any kind for any future event.
- You don't paint your other bedroom because you were "supposed" to be painting it for the nursery... so you just leave it unpainted.

Oh wait, all of those things are things that we have done.

And now here we are, planning again. God sure must think we are hilarious with all the plans that we try to make. Everything is His plan, so what on earth are we doing? What on earth have we been doing?

But none-the-less, we try to take some semblance of control over our situation and we plan. Right now I want to get a second job of some sort to make extra money to save for whatever we plan for the future. Whether it will be IVF or adoption, both will cost at least $10,000 and we plan to pay cash. So it's to the drawing board we go, what kinds of job will I look for.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

More thoughts on IVF w/ICSI

Jack and I were talking about affording this sort of medical procedure this morning. Our insurance covers absolutely nothing having even a hint to do with infertility, so we will be all out of pocket for whatever infertility procedure we decide to do. We don't want to finance this, so we will be paying cash for everything that we do. Every visit with a specialist, every prescription, every single thing.

This might be a few years out yet, we just need to start saving and working towards that.

Jack was telling one of his friends last night about what we were planning on doing and his friend said, well, what else would you spend your money on? How true. Would I rather go on a couple super exquisite vacations... or have a baby? No contest... Baby. Would we rather re-do the basement or have a baby... Baby. Would we rather buy a brand new car or have a baby.... Baby. So, when thought it terms like that... It makes sense and makes it much easier to justify the expense that we are going to be facing to try to conceive.

Only God knows what is in store for us, and we have faith that his plan is great. And if this is His will for our lives, then we will not struggle financially.


Friday, November 26, 2010

In vitro fertilization with intracytoplasmic sperm injection

What a powerful, interesting set of words.

In vitro fertilization is the process by which a woman's eggs are taken from her ovaries and fertilized by a man's sperm outside of the body. The fertilized eggs, or zygotes, are then transferred back into the woman's uterus with the hopes of establishing a successful pregnancy. In vitro fertilization or IVF is commonly used to combat female factor infertility.

In vitro fertilization with intracytoplasmic sperm injection, or IVF w/ICSI is a method more commonly used to combat male factor infertility. This is the process by which, in the same way as in IVF, a woman's eggs are taken from her ovaries and fertilized by a man's sperm outside the body. The way IVF w/ICSI differs is the method by which the sperm fertilize the eggs outside of the body. Generally, in cases where this is necessary, the male sperm has morphology problems. (The shape of the sperm.)

IVF w/ICSI is the road that we would have to be taking if we were to go the medical route instead of pursuing adoption. At this point, we are very prayerfully considering this option. We aren't 100% sure of anything, yet, except that we want to become parents.

Step one.... pray.

Step two... save money.

Step three... find a doctor that we can actually trust.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Thankful

Thanksgiving is this week and I just wanted to share what I'm thankful for this Thanksgiving.

I'm thankful for a lot of things, but most of all, I'm thankful for my God. My God who loves unconditionally, no matter how many times I manage to mess things up. I'm thankful for my God who sent His son to die for my sins!

I'm thankful for my husband, Jack. He is a great listener and a wonderful partner. I could not imagine my life without him!

I'm thankful for God's plan for our life. I don't know what it is, and even though it's been difficult at times, I know that He promises Joy unspeakable. I'm waiting for that joy! And I will remain faithful until that day comes.

I'm thankful for our home. I love our home and everything in it, we have been so incredibly blessed.

I'm thankful for our jobs. I have a great boss and co-workers and Jack loves his job. Especially living in Michigan, at at time like this where unemployment looms so unbelievably high!

I'm thankful for my family and friends.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Happy Aniversary!

Just wanted to tell my beautiful wife happy aniversary. I can't believe it has already been three years! I know a lot of peoples' marriages suffer from infertility, I just want my wife to know I love her more today than I ever have.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Thanksgiving is coming

So many different things happen this time of year for Jack and I.

On November 11, 2009 Jack and I moved back home to Michigan from Wisconsin. I can not even wrap my brain around how fast the last year of my life went by.


This time of year is really my favorite time of year.

November 17th - Our Wedding anniversary
Week after that - Thanksgiving
Then Of course Christmas
January 19 - Jack's birthday (The big 3-0 this year!!)
February 6 - My birthday! (The big 2-5 this year :) )
and of course Feb 14 - Valentine's Day.

This is my favorite time of year! All of the things we celebrate really make this winter go by fast for me. AND of course, I LOVE snow.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Sing for my church and quilting

I went to my first practice for singing with my church on Thursday. I was SUPER nervous but it ended up being really fun. I think I did well, especially for not having sang like that for almost 7 years!! I'm pretty stinking excited to see how this turns out :)

And I've been quilting up a storm. In the last few weeks I've basted, quilted and bound 2 quilts. Today I'm going to try to baste and quilt one more Christmas Quilt to get it up on my Etsy before Christmas.


Sing for my church and quilting

I went to my first practice for singing with my church on Thursday. I was SUPER nervous but it ended up being really fun. I think I did well, especially for not having sang like that for almost 7 years!! I'm pretty stinking excited to see how this turns out :)

And I've been quilting up a storm. In the last few weeks I've basted, quilted and bound 2 quilts. Today I'm going to try to baste and quilt one more Christmas Quilt to get it up on my Etsy before Christmas.