Shades of Blue by Karen Kingsbury
In between a checkered past and a fairytale future, a decision awaits. Brad Cutler, twenty-eight, is a rising star at his New York ad agency, about to marry the girl of his dreams. Anyone would agree he has it all---a great career, a beautiful and loving fiancee, and a fairy tale life ahead of him ... when memories of a high school girlfriend begin to torment him. Lost innocence and one very difficult choice flood his conscience, and he is no longer sure what the future will bring except for this: He must go back to the shores of Holden Beach in search of his first love, and a forgiveness neither of them has ever known. Three people must work through the repercussions of a decision made long ago before any of them can look toward a new future.
(From back cover.)
This book really struck me hard. I have never read a book so intimate about the decisions surrounding and consequences following an abortion. Shades of Blue covers how deeply the woman is affected by her decision through the whole process, the actions and behaviors inside a clinic where the abortion was performed, the declaration that she wasn't pregnant with a baby, just "a mass of cells" as we have far too many times heard pregnancy described. Then this book details the rest of these people's lives spent regretting their decision and always wondering, What if? It was a heartbreaking journey as Karen Kingsbury described how much pain is involved in such a massive decision to choose to end a life.
Furthermore, this book really spoke to me about judging other people. Luke 37:41-42 says, And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother's eye, but perceivest not the beam that is in thine own eye? Either how canst thou say to thy brother, Brother, let me pull out the mote that is in thine eye, when thou thyself beholdest not the beam that is in thine own eye? Thou hypocrite, cast out first the beam out of thine own eye, and then shalt thou see clearly to pull out the mote that is in thy brother's eye. It really spoke to me today about the quickness we are to judge another's situation, but we are not without sin ourselves. We have no room to judge another. How can we look at another as though we have never been tempted or been in a situation where we have done something unfavorable, or that we are not proud of? Not one of us on this Earth is that way. All of us have done something or another that we regret, and only true forgiveness can set us free from that bondage.
But ultimately, the greatest and strongest chord that struck me more than the rest of the pain and suffering of these two teenagers who made the choice they regretted for the rest of their lives, was the simple and unconditional forgiveness of Jesus Christ. The way He and only He can cover such an act, any act, with His LOVE and GRACE and His unending and unwavering forgiveness. Never can you make up for the wrongs that you've done in your life, but, whatever they are, God will always forgive you. He forgives before you even did whatever you believe to be unforgivable. Meet Him at the Cross. Where God gave His only Son for you and for everything you've done or you will do.