Tuesday, May 3, 2011

"It would literally be a miracle."

We met with one of the top Reproductive Endocrinologists in Michigan today to discuss my bleeding problems and how it affects our fertility problems as a whole.

While we got some rather disturbing news of what are the possibilities and what the doctor believes to be the causes of my irregular and dysfunctional bleeding... the highlight of the visit had to be this:

After looking over all of our information he took his time to slowly describe how conception works with a healthy couple and how semen affects that situation and went bit by bit through his spectrum of what a healthy couple could conceive naturally with. Followed by IUI (intra-uterine insemination) and then followed by IVF.

He looked us in the eye and said, "the chances of natural conception for you two (remember, based on the semen analysis ALONE) is not going to happen. It would literally be a miracle for that to occur."

Now of course, add in anovulation. Read: No eggs for the lack of sperm to fertilize. End result : Jack and I have won the fertility lottery twice. Both of us.

Yeah, we already knew that and we already knew what they would say... but it still feels like being punched for someone to say that to you. As a matter of fact, I think I would trade getting punched in the face every day for the rest of my life to never have anyone ever had a reason to say that to us... so maybe that's a better analogy.

On to me though - He believes it to be one of a few things: 1. Uterine fibroids that would have to surgically be removed. He doesn't believe that the fibroids would really interfere with conception for this long of a period of time. The fibroids would then be sent to the lab to find out of they were cancerous. 2. Uterine cancer or endometrial cancer. He wants to do a endometrial biopsy. 3. A blood clotting disorder. 4. Anovulation and hormone disorders and irregularities. All of the first 3 need to be ruled out before proceeding with treatment of the 4th problem, because in his words, "adding estrogen to a cancerous uterus is like throwing gasoline on a fire." So here's to praying I do NOT have uterine cancer, and I am praying I do NOT have uterine fibroids and that I do NOT have a clotting disorder.

I feel even more drawn to adding to our family through the direction that we are already headed. I'm praying that we get a call soon and can start our homestudy process soon. Maybe too some day we will be ready to do domestic infant adoption!


  1. I am so sorry you had to hear that today. We are also praying that it is not cancer, and that you get a natural BFP to show that dr what a miracle is.

  2. Wow, what a powerful and gut wrenching thing to hear. Even when you're prepared for bad news, there's nothing to prepare you for a statement like that. I'll be praying for the testing and that it isn't cancer.

  3. I am so so sorry taht you had to experience hearing all that news. We will pray for you for a good report. x

  4. Well good thing we serve a MIRACLE WORKING GOD!!! Praying for a good report!


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