Sunday, September 30, 2012

Getting things squared away & getting help

This past week, Jack and I have crossed a lot of things off of our to-do lists by getting some help.

My brother and sister-in-law came over and helped me clean my house and knock out a bunch of chores.

Yesterday we had all of our carpet professionally cleaned and the ceramic tile and grout cleaned.

We are still waiting on our wood order and then when that comes, We will have a ridiculous amount of work to do.

Monday, September 24, 2012

Almost 6 months

It's weird to be counting this type of thing again. This weekend we will have been "trying" for number two for 6 months. It's weird how that number is really no time at all to me.

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Getting sick of dairy free diet

Today is one of those days where I'm just sick of being dairy free. I want some cheese, milk, yogurt, and butter.

I'm trying to make a grocery list and that includes a meal plan.

I never in my life thought I would say this, but I am really sick of chocolate. Since that's pretty much the only dessert I can have, I have overdoses on Brownies to the point that I felt so sick after eating some today that I threw up.

I'm to the point where I need a lot more variety in my diet or I would rather just not eat.

I guess I'll go back to drooling over every Pinterest recipe.

Man I look forward to when we can have pizza for dinner again.

Made it through!

I think Jack is really on the men's and Arie and I skated through unscathed. Woooohooo!

In other exciting news, Arie's first official two teeth just popped through. (I say official because he had back teeth cutting through on the bottom on both sides for months now.)

We should be getting our truck load of wood any time now and I'm so excited about that. It's getting chilly in the house and I'm ready to turn on the heat!!

I also LOVE fall weather for so many reasons but my main reason is the cozy clothes!! But this year, I've encountered a problem. It is not easy to nurse my baby in a hoodie!! Bummer!

I'm going to be experimenting with more DIY nursing clothes soon.

I also ordered an ergo baby carrier from baby steals and I'm so excited about that!

Arie had his 6 month appointment on Friday and he's doing great. He's back down on the charts to 8th percentile for weight but in the 40s for height.

21/30 Things... One Superpower

21. If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first?

I would love to be able to fly. I'd fly everywhere.

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

20/30 Things... Three Significant Memories

20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.

I have been thinking about this one A LOT and I have come to the conclusion that I can't really answer this one as described.

I consider childhood to start from the first thing that you can remember up to 12 years old. I can remember a LOT of things from my childhood, both good and bad, but the most significant memory is my parents divorce and all that surrounded it. Just about every memory has something to do with that, so I will just leave this post at that.

Monday, September 17, 2012

First adventure in parenting with a sick husband

Anyone who has been close enough to a man when they are sick understands "man cold."

That's what's going on under our roof tonight. Jack is sick with something and I think Arie is fighting it, not quite sick yet.

Jack got home from work and brought his laptop home which left me to believe that he was planning to work from home tomorrow. He stopped and picked up some cold pills and some Vicks. I handed him some NyQuil and told him to go to bed. Yup, at 5pm. I brought him some bean and ham soup and a big 1L bottle of water and he has been sleeping pretty much since.

I rubbed some Vicks on Arie's chest and back and slathered a bit on the bottom of his feet and put socks on (try it, it works fabulously!) we skipped bath time tonight in case he isn't feeling well, I didn't want him to be cold and wet.

Today was the first day that I've had to do this entirely on my own. Last night, Arie was kind of congested and woke up almost hourly, so I barely slept. Now here it is, 10pm and Jack is sleeping in the guest bed and Arie fell asleep and I'm rocking to make sure he's out.

I'm just watching to make sure Arie doesn't start coughing or get hoarse or get a fever. I haven't checked to see if Jack is running a temperature because I didn't want to get too close.

Hopefully tomorrow goes smoothly. I stuffed diapers tonight and tomorrow I have laundry to put away and I think I am going to try to find things to do out of the house so that we can steer clear of germs if Jack stays home.

One thing is for sure, as much as I hate that Arie might ever not feel well, being the one who can comfort him by a simple back rub or hug really is absolutely every special thing that I imagined. This feeling is amazing. Makes me love my mom more because I remember being sick and wanting comfort. I hope I don't get sick... My mom will have to come over ;)

I better get some sleep while I can. And, I need rest to ward off me getting sick too!

Monday, September 10, 2012

Sunday, September 9, 2012

19/30 Things... If I Could Live Anywhere

19. If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why?

Montana... with Amish people.  Montana is beautiful & Amish people are amazing people of faith.

18/30 Things... Most Difficult Thing to Forgive

18. What has been the most difficult thing you have had to forgive?

Without getting into the details, since this is one part of my life that I choose not to share on my blog...

Everything that happened leading up to mine & Jack's wedding day and how I have been treated ever since.

Since the situation is ongoing, it is very difficult to make a decision to forgive continually.  I hope and pray for a complete resolution where complete forgiveness can be achieved.

It's hard because our wedding day should be our happiest day, and we left in tears and we can't look at our pictures without remembering how cruelly we were treated that day... like I said, it's choosing every day to forgive.

17/30 Things... What I Wish I Could Do

17. What is the thing you most wish you were able to do well?

The grammar of the questions leaves something to be desired.

I wish I could play the guitar so that I could play and sing.

16/30 Things... Five Greatest Accomplishments

16. What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?

  1. Giving my life to Christ in 2006.  Humbling myself and asking for forgiveness from my savior is the best thing I've ever done and will ever do in this life.
  2. Reading the whole Bible.  I need to do it again. (And again, and again, and again, etc.)
  3. Staying married.  We have gone through some trials that could have easily ripped apart our marriage and God has seen us through.  Fifth wedding anniversary is in two months!
  4. Drug free labor & delivery.  (Until hour 20/21... and my epidural was a total dud!)  I feel like a total badass.
  5. 6 Months (so far) of exclusively breastfeeding.

15/30 Things... If I Were an Animal

15. If you were an animal, what would you be and why?

Questions like this are really silly... I guess bird, so I could fly.

14/30 Things... Five Strengths

14. Describe 5 strengths you have.

Of course this one will probably prove to be more difficult since it's always hard to see positive things about yourself.

  1. I am a good cook and baker.  
  2. I am honest. 
  3. I know who I am and I am true to myself.  The me you get to know is the real me.  
  4. I am a good mom.  
  5. I am a good and loyal wife.  

13/30 Things... Five Weaknesses

13. Describe 5 weaknesses you have.

Well, this should be really easy... since I have far more than five weaknesses.  So, how about the first five that I can think of off the top of my head.

  1. Handling situations with grace.  I grew up speaking my mind and never really holding my tongue, which can be a good thing, but it's something that I'm hoping the Lord changes in me as I grow.  I would prefer to be slow to react and slow to speak and I struggle with this one a lot.  It takes concentrated effort to not respond quickly with the first thing that comes to mind, and although my feelings and thoughts might be the same when I do respond to a situation, I am able to put more effort into not making my words so biting and cutting.
  2. I'm not a perfect housekeeper or even close.  I would REALLY like to get better at this and I need to find a way to work with having a 6 month old and using my slings and wraps and carriers to have him with me while I do house work.  Now that he's 6 months, I should experiment with back carries. 
  3. Not finishing what I start when it comes to social commitments.  Since Jack and I have been together, I have noticed that I really do not like to be in social situations for a long period of time without him.  I don't know why, but I just have a hard time with things like a book club or something and sticking with it from the beginning to the end.  I'm attempting to change this by getting involved with a moms group and another moms group at church.
  4. I am far too trusting.  I give people that I hardly know or people that I do know and should not trust way too much ammo to hurt me with.  For some reason, I give infinite opportunities to people to cut me down and hurt me and stab me in the back.  I am not a doormat, I am a human being and I have value.  Being a Christian or a nice person does not mean that I deserve to be a punching bag.
  5. I don't share my faith enough.  I live it out as best as I can, but I don't take the time when someone asks how I'm doing to really share what God has been doing in my life.  It's fear in two parts: first, that people are only asking to be polite and don't really want to hear a real response; and second, that I might offend someone by mentioning God or giving credit to God in my every day conversation.  

12/30 Things... Typical Day in the Life

12. Describe a typical day in your current life.

See this blog post written on August 13, 2012.

11/30 Things... 10 Pet Peeves

11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have.

While this little blogging challenge is not really that difficult or too time consuming, I'm starting to notice a little bit of a negative trend.  :/  I'm apprehensively writing down this list... although I'm not sure of the point of listing pet peeves.

1.  People who walk the fence... Pick a position and stick with it.  Don't just teeter back and forth, trying to please everyone; actually stand up for what you believe in.
2.  Know what you believe in... I don't like it when people argue things that they don't even have a grasp of the concept.  It's obvious to me when someone has educated themselves and fully understand the stand they have chosen to take, and equally as obvious when they are just repeating what they have heard.
3.  Noises from the mouth... like chewing and licking and eating.  My dogs and cat are not allowed to lick themselves around me.  What's funny about this one is that I thought the sound of my baby nursing would drive me INSANE and I had no idea how I was going to deal with that, but it isn't even a blip on my radar!
4.  Bad drivers.  I feel like people don't understand how dangerous being a bad driver can be.
5.  People who push their beliefs on other people... I mean, does ANYONE like this?
6.  People who insist that others be tolerant of their beliefs but do not extend the same courtesy to others.
7.  Wearing shoes in my house.  I have dogs that go outside (obviously) and I am constantly battling dirt on the floors.... and I'm trying to keep my floors as clean as possible.  I am just not a fan of anyone wearing shoes in my house at all.
8.  Intrusive questions.  Somehow, society today has become increasingly nosy and rude and I've noticed a massive amount of people that I don't know, or even some that I do, feel like it's okay to ask very personal questions.  It takes so much grace to answer these questions politely and to express discomfort about these questions and I'm really don't do a great job with that... I wish people wouldn't do this, but I need to work on ways to be better about changing the subject or refusing to answer politely.  A rude question doesn't need a rude response, I need to remember that! (If you have any tips on this, I'd love to hear it!)

Meh. That's good enough.

Saturday, September 8, 2012

9/30 Things... 10 People Who Have Influenced Me

9. List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.

  1. Jesus.  He gave His life for me & I live my life for Him.
  2. My husband.  He has shown me what a partner looks like and taught me how to trust & love endlessly.
  3. My mom.  She inspires me with her limitless creativity and her humor.  She lives outside the box and taught me how to be a mom. 
  4. My Dad.  He taught me how to get what I want and need with specific communication.  "That's not going to work for me." has become my favorite phrase when something isn't working out.
  5. Our Pastor.  His fierce love for the Lord is amazing.  He is encouraging and a great leader by example. 
  6. My middle school & high school Spanish teacher.  He taught me that doing your job doesn't mean the bare minimum.  I've never experienced another more devoted and creative teacher before or after him, and I've never heard of a teacher who taught like he did. Gracias SeƱor!!
  7. Katie from When Hello Means Goodbye.  While we were trying to conceive and then struggling with infertility, Katie & her husband conceived a son.  Brenham was born on February 29th, 2008 far too premature to survive and went on to Glory shortly after birth.  After that, Katie discovered that she was in kidney failure and needed a transplant.  Katie taught me to praise Jesus even through the worst storms imaginable and renewed and refreshed my faith in the storm that Jack and I were facing.  She also inspired me to publicly share our struggle and our faith... which has led to countless people all over the world contacting me after reading our testimony!
  8. Amish people.  The way they live their faith out so practically and simply just moves me.  I want to get to know them, I want to know their peace and tranquility.  I want to find joy in keeping my home clean and lose the clutter that we don't need that only clouds what's really important.  

This one was really hard.  I have been thinking about it for days.  I have some people that I could list as influencing me negatively, but I'm choosing to move on from negativity in my life and there is no need to perpetuate drama or increase their negativity by even naming them.  

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

6 Month Update

Of course, I'm going to say this every time I write about him... but where did the last 6 months go?

6 months ago, I had a sweet baby boy.

He is 14 lbs 13.5 oz and 26" long.  He wears size 6 month clothing.  He's quite the peanut.

Breastfeeding is going smashingly.  Still dairy & soy free though.  He is still exclusively breastfed.  He gets no solids or rice cereals or anything like that.  We plan to do baby led weaning and once he's able to sit up unassisted, we are going to start with the solids.  We are skipping right over purees.

Arie nurses every 1-2 hours 24 hours a day.  I know a lot of people try to cut back feedings, but my peanut is in the 3rd percentile... so he needs each and every time he eats.  He loves to comfort nurse and often falls asleep nursing.  I still love breastfeeding as much as I always have.

Today I went to Target with my mom and nursed him in the ring sling while I carried him around and browsed.

Cloth diapering is awesome.  I have a decent sized stash and I have definitely worked into a comfortable routine.  I have no issues and I love cloth diapering.  In July, we even went on a road trip and brought the diapers with us.  No complaints whatsoever.

He isn't sleeping through the night, but it doesn't really matter.  Like I said, he needs to eat all night long.  He still sleeps in our bed and we all get much more sleep.  We had moved his crib into our room and side car-ed (look it up!) it to our bed, but all it served as was a big obstacle that I had to climb around when I got in and out of bed.  So I think we only left it in there for a few weeks, and last night I had Jack move it back out.  It was so nice to not have to climb into bed from the foot of the bed!!

We upgraded him to his convertible car seat, he seems to find it much more comfortable.  I prefer him to wear shirts with collars or hoods when he's in the car seat because the straps cut into his neck :(

He loves to be worn on my hip and when he's really tired I can still throw him in the moby or k'tan and get my housework done.  I'm also loving my Mei Tai for shopping trips.  I feel so much safer wearing him in my mei tai because it feels like no one could kidnap him from me.  (Yeah, okay, I might be a paranoid mom... but for any other paranoid moms out there... seriously, this wrap is fantastic.)  He is wrapped up tight and there is no way anyone could get him out to grab him.  That makes this momma very happy.  Plus he loves to ride in it.  I thought he would be ready for back carries when he was 6 months old, but I think I'm going to wait until he gets a little bigger.  I didn't expect for him to stay such a peanut for so long.  I guess it's kind of amazing that my babe was 5 1/2 lbs coming home from the hospital and he's gained 9 lbs in 6 months.

He's so happy and so healthy too.

He is rolling all over the place now.  He just flops himself right over and rolls around the room.  The other day he just started tucking his knees under his belly while he was on his stomach and yesterday he started pushing up with his arms and getting into a pushup type position.  He's thinking about crawling and he doesn't even know it.

He's also getting so strong... his pinches and bites HURT!  He's growing hair too!! This little bald baby sure has hair now! :)

He's starting to show a lot more vocal signs of preferences.  Now a lot of times when I hand him to Jack to walk out of the room to shower or go cook dinner or something, he cries for me.

He has said Mommy and Mama but I don't think either was on purpose.  When he gets really mad he says MMmmmMaaaaaaa.

He's getting closer and closer to sitting up unassisted.

I think that's everything that I can think of to update about him!

Since he was born I have lost 69 lbs.  I gained 45 with my pregnancy, so I am almost 25 lbs below my pre-pregnancy weight.  I am down to a size 8 in jeans and I am so happy about it!  My hair is still falling out like crazy, to the point where Jack is commenting frequently about how he doesn't know how I am not bald!  I feel great, my only complaint is that I need to be better about drinking water and taking my vitamins.  I absolutely LOVE being a mom.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

8/30 Things... 5 Passions

8. What are 5 passions you have?

Number one: Jesus Christ.  He is my Savior & God.

Number two: Being a wife & homemaker... I love being married and I love having a clean house and entertaining.

Number three: Being a mom.  This is a huge privilege and I couldn't be happier.

Number four: Cooking & Baking.

Number five: Writing.

7/30 Things... What's My Dream Job and Why

7. What is your dream job, and why?

My dream job is, and always has been, to be a stay at home mom.  I have always thought that raising kids was the most important thing that I could do.  I can't really explain why beyond that, but I am incredibly blessed and grateful to be able to live my dream right now.

6/30 Things... Hardest Thing I've Ever Experienced

6. What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?

Infertility.  Hands down.

This blog is a well documented testament to that fact.

5/30 Things... 5 Things that Make You Happy

5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?

One:  Waking up to my sweet baby in my arms.
Two:  When my husband gets home from work.
Three:  Cloth diaper laundry.
Four:  Being able to stay at home with my little prince.
Five:  The amazing Grace of God that allows me to live this amazing life with a living miracle.

4/30 Things... 10 Things to Tell my 16 Year Old Self

4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.

  1. Wait until you're married to have sex.  It is WORTH the wait.
  2. You have already met your soul mate... just wait for God's timing... it's not far off.
  3. Be more careful driving.
  4. Be a better friend.
  5. Stay on the softball team.
  6. Don't waste your time with jerks.
  7. Save your money.
  8. Go to church.
  9. Your Grandparents are not going to live forever.
  10. High School will be over soon, hang in there! 

3/30 Things... Relationship with husband

3. Describe your relationship with your husband.

Jack is my best friend.  He truly is the absolute best friend that I have ever had, I'm not just being cheesy.  I tell him everything that crosses my mind, no matter how crazy or off the wall, and I never worry about him judging me.  He's got my back, and I've got his.  I trust him completely.  He's a great listener and a slow story teller.  He has strengths where I have weaknesses and he is a perfect compliment to me.

We are still learning to work as a well oiled machine, as new parents.  Jack has been an excellent partner in all that life has thrown at us.  He started as a great friend, and then boyfriend, and then loving fiance, and then husband.  After that he became my protector and defender, my provider (in a non-redneck/trashy-don't-haul-my-husband-off-to-jail-because-he's-my-provider-type-of-way) and my leader.  He became my strength as we battled through years of infertility and he became my caregiver who washed out my barf bowl throughout my miraculous pregnancy.  He was my coach through labor and delivery and he's my co-pilot as the father of our son.

We have had a lot of bumps along the way, but over all, I could not be happier to be about to celebrate our fifth wedding anniversary in November.  Love you babe.

2/30 Things... 3 Fears

2. Describe 3 fears you have and explain how they became fears.

Number One: Absolutely anything that flies and stings.  I am terrified of bees, hornets, wasps, yellow jackets; seriously, all of the above.  I don't know if this requires explanation.

Number Two: Thunderstorms & Tornados.  This is a new fear that developed in 2008 when the forecast showed a light breeze and a tornado hit our apartment complex.  We were very fortunate to be safe.  The fact that out of a thunderstorm, a tornado can form makes me fear both.  Now that we own a home the fear of storm damage became a part of this.  And, finally, since becoming a mother, the fear of not being able to protect my child is a big part of this.  

Number Three: I don't really have any more... I know that a lot of common things are things happening to Jack or AJ, but God is in control.  I know that applies to the top two as well, but I never claimed to be a perfect person. :P

30 Things

I'm gonna give it a go!


1. List 20 random facts about yourself.
2. Describe 3 fears you have and explain how they became fears.
3. Describe your relationship with your husband.
4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.
5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
6. What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?
7. What is your dream job, and why?
8. What are 5 passions you have?
9. List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.
10. Describe your most embarrasing moment.
11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have.
12. Describe a typical day in your current life.
13. Describe 5 weaknesses you have.
14. Describe 5 strengths you have.
15. If you were an animal, what would you be and why?
16. What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?
17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?
18. What has been the most difficult thing you have had to forgive?
19. If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why?
20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.
21. If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first?
22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?
23. List your top 5 hobbies and why you love them.
24. Describe your family dynamic of your childhood vs. your family dynamic now.
25. If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?
26. What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?
27. What is your favorite part of your body and why?
28. What is your love language?
29. What do you think people misundertand most about you?
30. List 10 things you would hope to be remembered for.

(Disclaimer.... I may change things here and there.... :) 

Anyone want to do this with me?  Should be super fun! 

Bloggers attempting to do this with me:
Heidi @ Life With the Paulsens
Amy @ A Quiet Life
Kristy @ KristyDavis

1/30 Things... 20 Random Facts

{To know what I'm talking about, start here...}(I'll update this link later!)

1. List 20 random facts about yourself.


1. I am a follower of Christ.

2. Mine and Jack's engagement was only 5 months. We had been together almost 2 years before getting married.

3. I played on a travel softball team and loved it! I felt like a super star when I made the team after tryouts.

4. I am the third of four kids.

5. My husband has at least 5 alarms that go off every morning and I have slept through every one of them for the last 5 years. Somehow, even though I have the same alarms, I wake up for my own when I need to set them.

6. I considered moving to Costa Rica for college, but began dating my husband instead.

7. My hair is as long as it is because my husband loves it. It's a lot of work and I like the way it looks, but I would much rather have medium length hair. When I was pregnant, I cut it all off because I was so sick that I couldn't even brush it daily. It's getting long again and I don't have any excuses to not take care of it.

8. Jack and I stopped getting Christmas Trees or putting up our fake one last Christmas and I don't see us ever reviving that. We both felt there was too much emphasis on the lights and the tree and the presents and not enough on loving each other and spending time with each other. We also will not be pretending about Santa with our child(ren). same with the Easter Bunny.

9. I like to throw dinner parties and entertain.

10. I gained about 45 pounds with my pregnancy with Arie and have lost 69 pounds in the last 6 months since he was born.

11. I snap all of Arie's diapers after stuffing them and I'm pretty sure Jack thinks it's insane.

12. I wanted to get baptized one summer when I was 10 or 11 and staying with my Grandparents. I didn't end up getting baptized until I was 21.

13. I barely remember high school. All I remember is that I hated a lot of it.

14. I have had a blog for 10 1/2 years.

15. Some of my favorite memories from childhood are walking to the library, borrowing a stack of books, dragging my bean bag up into a tree and finding a comfortable perch, and spending hours reading.

16. I have four tattoos.

17. I have a passion for all things made from scratch.

18. If I sleep with my arms over my head, they fall asleep.

19. I have wanted to write a memoir since I was in high school. Keeping up with a blog is just kind of an extension of that.

20. My first car was a 2004 dark blue Jetta 1.8 T. I miss that fun little car!

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