Monday, October 29, 2012

Bad weather

I know that my bad weather from hurricane sandy is laughable, especially with my sister living in New Jersey.

However, because of this windy weather, there has been a change in my plans. Arie has been sleeping absolutely terribly at night waking all night long, sometimes twice an hour, just fussing. Not really wanting to eat and go back to sleep like normal, it just seems like he's uncomfortable and only getting out of bed and rocking fixes it.

Of course, I have no rocking chair until tomorrow which all sorts of sucks, but I was going to move the pack'n'play into our room to see if Arie would sleep better in there. Arie has never slept well in there which is why he doesn't sleep in it, but sleeps in our bed. I just did what works. But for some reason, maybe it's a growth spurt, maybe he has more teeth coming through, I have no idea, but he just is not sleeping in our bed.

This long winded explanation was to say that I was planning on putting him in the pnp tonight, but because of the very bad storms and the almost certainty that we will lose power, I don't want to make this be his first night in a different bed. Of course he knows no different and can't tell the weather is bad, so this is all me and my comfort.

Maybe tomorrow night.

7 Weeks Pregnant with #2

This week, Baby is the size of a: blueberry!
How far along? 7 weeks 1 day
Due date: 6.16.12
Maternity clothes? Not yet.
Sleep: it's funny... When I was pregnant With Arie, I was always up and thinking about him and what our life would be like. Now I'm up but not because I'm thinking about anything but because Arie is tossing and turning lol.
Best moment this week: hit 7 weeks!
Food cravings: pears. Arie and I shared one for breakfast this morning.
Movement: none yet
Symptoms: this past week I started feel nauseous. :(
Labor Signs: no, thank the Lord
Stretch Marks yep, leftover stripes from Arie man
Swelling? Nope
Belly Button in or out? in
What I miss: not a thing
Feeling toward Pregnancy: Really excited.
What I am looking forward to: end of first trimester!
Milestones: over three weeks of tandem nursing
News: still waiting to find the heartbeat on the Doppler. I found it between 7-8 weeks with Arie which is suuuuuper early on a Doppler.

Saturday, October 27, 2012

Tandem Nursing / Breastfeeding While Pregnant

I'll be 7 weeks pregnant tomorrow and we have been slooooooooowly introducing solid foods for Arie. The difference in his ability to chew and swallow from 3-4 weeks ago is amazing.

It also appears that there has been no difference in my supply. Arie seems to have gone through a bit of a growth spurt and has gained almost half a pound in 2 1/2 weeks! That's more than he gained from 6mo to 7mo old. :)

I'm still nursing on demand and I nurse 12-16 times a day.

Everything seems to be going great!

Friday, October 26, 2012

My theory is busted

The last 24 hours I have felt queasy non stop.

My theory was that because I eat only unprocessed foods and almost all organic foods that that must be why I wasn't feeling so sick like last time.

I think it's busted. I haven't had any junk food whatsoever in I don't know how long. Any sweet that I eat is either fruit or something I have made completely from scratch and I do that maybe every other week.

I think your body just gets sick if its going to get sick.


Well I did it before and I can do it again. If this baby is born around the same time as Arie, I only have 30-31 more weeks to go!! That's just nuts.

I used to think that people who wished for morning sickness were out of their mind, but now I get a little part of that worry. With symptoms you have a constant reminder of your pregnancy.

With Arie, I can't remember the exact date, but I think it was between 7-9 weeks where I found his heartbeat with my Doppler. I tried tonight, but nothing yet.

It's 3am now, I think I should carry my now sleeping babe back to bed.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

First midwife appointment

Just an interview, not really an appointment. I already noticed a lot of differences in the care given in just one visit. The midwives were very interested in getting to know me as a person and as a mom and they base their care off of me specifically, not some one size fits all treatment and protocol.

I also never felt even remotely rushed.

I figured it out

I forgot to put Arie's amber necklace back on him!!! Gah!! Such a simple fix. He slept from 9pm-8am only barely rousing to nurse and go right back to sleep. That's back to normal!

It's shocking what a difference that necklace makes!

I am sitting here rocking and trying to decide if I'm going to get up while Arie is sleeping to shower or if I should let him get a good nap and go after. I almost always choose good nap haha.

We are out of eggs and a few other random things. I need to bake bread and some muffins. I'm thinking pumpkin.

It's already the 23rd of October and this Unprocessed October challenge has been absolutely no big deal at all. Obviously I can't eat out, but we are throwing away almost nothing since all the food gets used in the meal plans!

I'm also starting to feel a little bit queasy. I don't have any bread or muffin or anything to eat right now and I normally start my day with a carbohydrate and fruit. I just had some juice, so I'm thinking that might be the cause... But the other side of my brain is thinking oh man, is this when my morning sickness is going to start?!

Pregnancy + baby challenge

When I'm pregnant, I suddenly lose all my ability to regulate my body temperature. 95% of the time, I feel like its sweltering. Or, I'm uncomfortably chilled to the bone.

It has been a challenge to figure out how to stay a comfortable temperature at night. So many experiments with different blanket and sheet combos have left me realizing there is no perfect combo. Tonight the window is open and the ceiling fan is on.

And, not only am I a human heater now, I have my own personal baby-sized heater right next to me. I think he's been having a hard time sleeping because of the uncomfortable temperatures.

This post really has no point except that its giving me something to do while I rock Arie in this horrendous excuse of a chair. I wish there was a way to describe how broken down this chair is. How about I put it this way... It's probably not safe to rock for any extended period of time with the amount of wood that is rubbing together for fear of starting a fire. This chair is worn out junk.

Monday, October 22, 2012

Worst night's sleep

Last night was an up every 20 minutes kind of night. I have no idea what was wrong with him.

It has been the most uncomfortable night sleeping for me too lately. Since we turned the heat on, our bedroom has a swing from 68°-72°. At 68°, I'm freezing using both a flat flannel sheet and a quilt. At 72°, I wake up because I'm sweating and I'm super hot. Then it goes back down to 68° and I'm freezing because I was sweaty. It's a miserable thing. Arie sweats too so that only means he's probably going through the same thing. :(

No wonder neither of us sleep well.

And, I am ready to throw my glider out the window. It's so old that wood is rubbing against wood. It grinds and pops and bangs with every rock. There is no simple gliding.

I absolutely need another glider.

Like today.

Too bad they are about $500 and there's a whole list of things that need to be purchased first.

I am grouchy. I'm sick of it always being to cold or too hot in our bedroom. The last two winters, it was nothing like this.

Good thing we paid someone to "fix" our vents so we would have more consistent heat. >:(

Saturday, October 20, 2012

6 Weeks Pregnant with #2

This week, Baby is the size of a: sweet pea :)
How far along? 6 weeks... Tomorrow :)
Due date: 6.16.12
Maternity clothes? Not yet. I think I'm losing weight in my butt and its already going to my belly lol
Sleep: . Arie hasn't been sleeping well so that means I haven't either
Best moment this week: no morning sickness at all
Food cravings: English muffins! I totally made some from scratch. They are delicious!!

Movement: none yet
Symptoms: nothing!
Labor Signs: no, thank the Lord
Stretch Marks yep, leftover stripes from Arie man
Swelling? Nope
Belly Button in or out? in
What I miss: not a thing
Feeling toward Pregnancy: Really excited. 
What I am looking forward to: end of first trimester! 
Milestones: over two weeks of tandem nursing! 
News:  meeting my first midwife this week :)

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Day in the Life with a 7 month old & pregnant

7 months old & pg w/#2
I want to do this every now and then, just so that I can look back and see what life was like.

I probably forgot to write down 3 or 4 nursing sessions and maybe one or two diaper changes just because I just do these things and don't think about it. Because he's nursing on demand, if I'm folding clothes and he's on my lap, I can quickly latch him on, he might nurse for a minute and he's comforted and good to go again. It's hard to really measure it, since he doesn't nurse just to eat. Sometimes it's if he's tired or over stimulated or if he tried to crawl and face planted.

I also apologize in advance for any formatting issues, spelling or grammar errors. Think of this like chicken scratch and me jotting it down quickly as its happening.

October 16, 2012
9pm: change baby, rock & nurse baby to sleep,

9:20: carry baby upstairs and crawl into bed, taking too much shuffling to get blankets in the right spot, gotta rock baby again

9:30: get in bed, situate phone plugged in with white noise machine on and white noise app playing. Zzzzz

11pm: nurse baby

October 17, 2012
12:20am: nurse baby. Jack comes to bed.

2:50am: nurse baby

3:27am: baby's still flopping around, go in nursery and grab diaper, change baby. Rock and nurse back to sleep

3:47a: baby's back to sleep, curled right up against me. My Stomach is rumbling... Time to try to go back to sleep. Rather have a sleeping baby than a midnight snack.

5:30am nurse baby

6:50am: nurse baby. Baby's awake. Jack changes diaper before leaving for work. Nurse baby some more.

7:15am: baby's not going back to sleep, time to go have breakfast and go play with toys in living room.

8am : diaper change & sit down to nurse

8:30 am : still playing with toys. Baby & mama are still tired.

8:45am. Back upstairs to dark bedroom and white noise. Rock in glider for 15 minutes and we are both back in bed.

11:15am: wake up from glorious nap, nurse baby, get up and diaper change & mama shower.

11:40am: get dressed, hair, make up, diaper change for baby, get him dressed, start making a dent on cleaning his room, put away diaper laundry, put away laundry.

12:30pm: go get the mail, walk around outside with the dogs and baby in ergo, enjoy the beautiful weather

12:40pm: get lunch, leftover chicken noodle soup, baby plays on floor with toys

1pm: nurse baby.

1:15pm: time to change baby's diaper, and keep working on cleaning his room.

2:10pm: room is clean, change baby, head outside for a walk with the dogs out back, baby in Ergo.

2:14pm : change of plans. Rock & nurse in rocking chair in bedroom with windows open and white noise playing. Baby's grouchy. Time for baby nap.

2:22pm: baby's asleep. Keep rocking.

4pm: baby's still asleep. Keep rocking. Maybe this is how I lost the baby weight? Just hours of rocking!

4:30pm: baby awake! Nurse baby, Jack gets home, diaper change!

4:45-6 vacuum and clean kitchen, do dishes, put away laundry while Jack plays with Arie.

6pm: Jack vacuums stairs for me and I nurse Arie and then put Arie in the Ergo on my back to scrub the hard floors.

6:40pm: done with the floors, Jack is outside cutting leaves with the lawn mower. I'm messing around on Facebook and YouTube while sitting on the floor playing with Arie and his toys.

7:10pm : fussy baby, takes a break from playing to eat and right back to it. Jack is still cutting up leaves.

7:30-7:45pm : give baby a bath & put on lotion, clean ears, put on pjs and grab blanket and burp cloth to get ready for bed.

7:50pm: making a midnight snack/ breakfast for tomorrow. Baked oatmeal.

8:45pm change baby one more time,
Nurse & rock.
9:30pm: baby has nursed to sleep. Jack and I will hang out until I get tired and head up to bed probably between 10-10:15pm.

10pm: dogs bark and wake Arie up. Start rocking and white noise process again.

10:45pm: dogs are in their beds for the night. Baby is finally sleeping. Rocking until 11 for good measure and them I'm crawling in bed!

11:10pm. In bed. White noise machine going, white noise app playing, rain storm outside and oscillating fan running. Time to say my prayers and close my eyes!

Monday, October 15, 2012

5 weeks pregnant

This week, Baby is the size of a: (an) appleseed
How far along? 5 weeks, 1 day
Due date: 6.16.12
Total weight gain/loss: +0
Maternity clothes? Not yet. Still in my new jeans that I bought a couple months ago. 
Sleep: not sleeping very well between waking up with Arie and getting up to pee. 
Best moment this week: well it was last Monday, but finding out about baby #2!
Food cravings: none

Movement: none, but since I know what it feels like, I will be on the lookout in a couple months for it!!
Symptoms: low back pain (hopefully today's trip to the Chiropractor helped that!) and hip pain, some round ligament pain, exhaustion and pregnancy brain!
Labor Signs: no, thank the Lord
Stretch Marks yep, leftover stripes from Arie man
Swelling? Nope
Belly Button in or out? in
What I miss: not a thing
Feeling toward Pregnancy: Really excited. 
What I am looking forward to: end of first trimester! 
Milestones: over one week of tandem nursing :)
News:  nothing to speak of, just excited and interviewing midwives. Deciding between a birth center and a home birth. 

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Tandem Nursing

I have been searching the Internet frantically trying to find some reliable information about tandem nursing with the spacing my kids will have.

Everything I have found has conflicted. I have seen it from one extreme to the other about whether or not it is possible, with only 1 or 2 examples of the same spacing as my kids.

As is my way, I guess I'll just forge my own path and document it as best I can along the way.

Arie was 7 months and 3 days old when I discovered I was pregnant with number two.

While searching for information, I was advised by some knowledgable midwives that one thing that might help a possible supply dip is pumping. As much as I never wanted to pump, I want to wean even less, so we are on our way to buy a breast pump.

The theory is that if my supply tanks, which I am desperately hoping that it does not, I will have increased my supply so it might level off to what it needs, or, I will have a supply of milk in my freezer.

I am not going to lie, I am not looking forward to pumping one bit. I was hell bent on not pumping at all. But, I am going to do everything in my power to Keep my supply during pregnancy. Especially since I am Arie's only source of food because he is not ready for and has not started solids yet.

All I can really do is chronicle my attempts and write it down in case it helps someone else out there in the world!

So, I am 5 weeks pregnant tomorrow and it looks like there have been no noticeable changes to my supply or my breasts. I have been on the watch for any teeny tiny little change to alert me of this pregnancy, but, so far, nothing. I almost think that I am to the point of imagining things because I have read so many accounts of what it felt like to mothers who have had their supply drop or disappear.

In my opinion, the best advice that I have found so far is to eat a very healthy and balanced diet and stay extremely hydrated. This works out well for me during my Unprocessed October challenge as my diet includes zero junk food and zero processed food of any kind. All of my food is made from scratch.

I have noticed that I have begun to feel tired several days this week and also very hungry between meals. I have been snacking on fruit and nuts in between meals.

Since I am not drinking milk, I am going to have to make a huge effort to eat foods very high in calcium.

I had to laugh at some of the things I found while searching for information such as "wean your baby immediately upon discovering pregnancy!" I am of the mindset that if babies are supposed to be exclusively breastfed for at least year (getting their primary nutrition from it, or formula) that God doesn't make mistakes. I am in excellent health, especially since having Arie and losing 70lbs. I am confident that my body can handle this.

That's my update for now. We are heading home, pump in tow. I'll keep you all updated!

This is taking some time to sink in.

With Arie, I took 3 pregnancy tests.

The first one was because I had a lot of symptoms.  Then Jack and I went to the store and I bought the strongest test that I knew of... a FRER (First Response Early Response) and a digital.  Both of those came back positive.

I believed those tests.

For some reason, I am struggling to believe the 20 or so tests that I have taken.  Just kidding, it's probably been about 12.

Since I am still exclusively nursing Arie and he has such a sensitive little system when we have tried adding in solid foods, we were planning to wait until closer to one year old to really introduce solids.  Then, I discovered that I was pregnant.  I assumed that I would just carry on as normal nursing and then I started looking in to it.

In my research, I have discovered that I can't find any other moms (I'm sure there are some, but I can't find them!) out there who have conceived while breastfeeding a baby who still nurses every 1-3 hours around the clock.  Sure, there are a lot of people who have conceived while the baby they are nursing is a little over one year old, but NONE while the baby is 7 months old and still exclusively breastfed.

Then I began to realize that it was very highly unlikely that even the most fertile of couples would conceive in this scenario.  And then add in our male factor and female factor infertility.  Yup, God does WHATEVER he wants.  Believe in Miracles, folks.  Miracle baby #2 is baking right now.

I will be 5 weeks pregnant tomorrow.  

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Well this is quite unexpected

Yesterday, I took a pregnancy test...

And it was positive!!

God is amazing!! TWO Miracle Babies?!?!

I am speechless!!

Praying for this babe!!!

And praying for my little family, 2 babies 15 months apart!!

I know this isn't anywhere close to as eloquently written as when I found out that I was expecting Arie, but I'm writing this as I rock miracle babe # 1 on my shoulder & using my cell phone app.

I'm praying that our TWO miracle pregnancies are a testament to what an amazing and loving God we have.

I know people will probably think its crazy to be celebrating and shouting for joy when I am 4 weeks pregnant but both Jack and I believe that God numbers all of our days before we are stitched together in the womb and that this baby is no different. Right now, this baby is alive and that's worth celebrating. And whether this baby lives to be 102, or we don't meet until we get to Heaven... Jack and I have TWO miracle babies!!!

What an incredible blessing! I pray that I am not sick and that I NEVER forget how big a blessing this is. I pray that I am grateful again to be sick every day and joyful!

Thank you Lord, I could never imagined such abundant blessings!!

From broken hearted to doubly blessed in 14 months. How Great Thou Art!!

(Please know that I will continue to pray for every longing heart even more, my heart is absolutely still breaking for anyone struggling to build the family of their dreams.)

Saturday, October 6, 2012

7 month update

My little miracle baby is 7 months old today!

He's 15lbs 11.5oz this evening & 27" long.

He's sitting up by himself for longer and longer periods of time and he just figured out how to cruise around in his car walker.

He has two bottom teeth that are the most precious thing I have ever seen.

He loves to be by me at all times and will call Mama when I leave the room.

He's still not sleeping through the night, but that's okay. I know he needs those extra calories especially because he only gained half a pound in the last month.

He's so smiley all day. He wakes up so happy to see me next to him.

He's learning how to tuck his knees under him and he's building up the strength to try to crawl.

He's nursing every 2 hours or less around the clock, but he dream feeds from about 10pm to about 8am.

Cloth diapering is fabulous and it seems to be way more fun now that we have hit the "break even" point and diapering every day is now free except the very minuscule cost of utilities.

Breastfeeding is fabulous.

Arie still has a severe dairy intolerance. It definitely has changed my life and the way I see food and I doubt I will ever go back to eating dairy even a quarter of what I used to.

We have begun introducing a few solids here and there in line with baby led weaning but he has shown signs of being allergic to almost everything we have tried or he has a lot of bowel problems. We spoke with his pediatrician and he will likely be exclusively breastfed until he's one and then we will begin introducing solid foods.

We really couldn't love this child more. I have him with me 24 hours a day and 7 days a week and it doesn't feel like enough. He knows Jack and gets excited when he comes home from work. He's not very fond of very many other people and tolerates them for a few minutes at a time, but is always very happy to be back with his mama.

There hasn't been a day that has gone by in the last 7 months that I haven't thanked God for this amazing gift. We love him and we are so grateful and so blessed.

Oh, and he still looks just like his Mama but every now and then glimpses of Dad peek through. I have a feeling he will have his dad's relaxed personality.