I don't know why this keeps happening, but I find myself awake in the middle of the night for no reason. My babes are both peacefully sleeping next to me.
My mind wanders in every direction imaginable. I randomly thought of Matt Logelin and wondered if he ever remarried. His baby turned 4 in March.
I had a dream tonight that Ashley and I both had boys again. Her baby was 8 lbs something and mine was 7lbs 3oz. I was so excited about our new babies!
I think about how sore my nipples are from breastfeeding during pregnancy and I worry about what it will be like with a newborn again.
Then I worry about fighting off interventions during labor. And I wish we could afford a home birth. Then I wonder how we will afford a doula.
I have no idea how to shut my brain off so I can go to sleep.