Thursday, February 28, 2013

Teething fever

Arie had a fever all day yesterday and it was below 100.5° the whole day so I just kept an eye on it. I'm fairly certain it's a teething fever because he's been drooling and has his hands in his mouth nonstop.

When trying to go to bed last night, Arie was just tossing and turning and I finally have him some Tylenol. He slept for several hours and woke up at 1am with a soaked diaper. I had a fitted and two bamboo doublers on him and he was still soaked! I was sure he would last until morning in that diaper! Wrong lol

It's 2:20am, and Arie is sleeping, no longer warm with fever. I'm trying to decide when to climb back in bed from the rocking chair.

Today I'm headed to the chiropractor for Arie first thing and then going to a play date and to pick up my Pink Lady. I'm pretty excited about that.

I'm super tired. Time for bed.

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

23 Weeks Pregnant w/#2

This week, Baby is: 10.5 to 11.8 inches and about 12.7 to 20.8 ounces

How far along? 23 weeks pregnant!

Due date: 6.23.13

Maternity clothes? yes... I hate maternity clothes. My pants sag lol

Sleep: back hurts

Weight gain: +10. Eeeeep.

Best moment this week: Arie's birthday party was yesterday.

Food cravings: Sweets

Movement: comes and goes

Symptoms: I'm feeling good as far as pregnancy goes. I think I am fighting off a virus right now though.

Labor Signs: nope

Stretch Marks: yep, leftover stripes from Arie man

Swelling? Starting to swell a bit in my legs and ankles. :/

Belly Button in or out? in but it's starting to get stretched and pop a little!

What I miss: my jeans

Feeling toward Pregnancy: I don't like the weight gain.

What I am looking forward to: my first home birth midwife appointment and getting our taxes done so we can get that return ASAP.

Milestones: one week to official viability

News: Not much

I will add some pictures from yesterday next time I'm on a computer.

Middle of the night

I think I have done most of my blogging in the middle of the night since Arie was born. Thank God for smart phones otherwise my journey through motherhood would have been undocumented.

I got my first "that's crazy" today regarding my home birth plans from Jack's cousin Mikey. I went to type out a response about how it's not that crazy since up until about 100 years ago, birth was always at home... But I just deleted my status instead.

There's no point to try to convince someone who will never give birth themselves and what does it matter? I guess it means that we might need to expect a call from Jack's Grandma when she hears about it.

Jack's mom is totally supportive and as far as I can tell, pretty excited for me. I have no idea how the rest of Jack's family feels, but since its irrelevant, I don't really care and neither does Jack.

I read How Big is a Placenta Bowl tonight and it was a quick read... Kind of a waste of $5.99. There was nothing in it that I didn't know or hasn't already read online or seen in home birth YouTube videos.

I'm curious to see if Eileen has any recommended reading for me!

I have decided that officially on March 1st that I am going Dairy and Soy free again. The last month I have REALLY eaten like crap and I'm so sick of it. My weight has creeped up and I'm not interested in creating a problem for myself when trying to lose it all in a few months here. (Now, "it all" at this point is 12 pounds, but, still.)

I need to start baking more. I think every day that I start out rummaging for breakfast, I set myself up to do poorly that day.

I think it can take 2 weeks to 2 months for the dairy and soy to completely get out of your system, so technically March 1st will be earlier than necessary, since baby's estimated due date isn't until June 23rd, but I think starting March 1st will be good to get my healthy diet back under control as well as make it easy to remember how long I've been dairy & soy free.

I also need a serious sugar detox. Between Jack's birthday, my birthday, valentines day and Arie's birthday party, I am dangerously overloaded on sweets and I just crave them 24/7. I know I need a big break from sweets for a while. Luckily, with the MSPI diet, I didn't have to give up sweets, but I also never craved them after a while. My favorite dessert was pretzels and dairy/soy free chocolate chunks by enjoy life. I have been craving that recently too, but I am going to wait to have that for a couple weeks to let my body try to work through all the sugar I've consumed recently.

I think Arie has been sufficiently rocked to sleep and I think that was everything on my mind. I think that means I can crawl back in to bed now.

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Birthday Party Success

I only got teary eyed once during the whole party! While everyone was singing happy birthday, it was a little over whelming but the day turned out great. We only had a little extra food, and lots of extra veggies so I think I will be making chicken soup.

Both Jack and I are definitely coming down with something now. This is the second time I've been sick this pregnancy! I took 7000iu of vitamin D3 today hoping that helps and gargled cayenne pepper in water and Jack just filled the humidifier with water and apple cider vinegar.

I'm praying that Arie doesn't get sick. My whole spine hurts, but I have no fever yet.

Anyway, back to the party!

There were 41 people here including little kids and babies!

Arie was pretty overwhelmed but overall I think it was pretty great. He definitely preferred for me to hold him and occasionally Jack. He got so many great gifts too!

Friday, February 22, 2013

Arie's Party Prep

Birthday party preparations have been in full swing all day. I have cleaned and baked and cut veggies.

I have to get up at 5 to put the pork in the crock pot and get that going so that we will have food.

I still have to make the cheese dip but that's no big deal.

I have a bit more decorations to finish and a little bit more cleaning to do. Jack needs to put together Arie's tricycle.

I have to frost the cupcakes in the morning. I also need to clean the kitchen and scrub the floors. I wanted to put a mat for shoes up and some towels out for the front door. I'm also going to hang some balloons on the front door.

I feel like I have so much left to do but I'm completely spent from the whole day.

Arie is exhausted too. He only had a tiny nap because of the dogs going to the groomer being right at his nap time.

And then we took Arie to the chiropractor to see if adjusting him twice a week will help him sleep better over the weekend.

Of course though, in true Jack fashion, right on a big important day, he thinks he's coming down with something. He's got a sore throat and an achy body. Perfect. Juuuuust perfect.

I got kind of emotional when I saw the balloons and banners that I hung up for Arie. We have a(n) (almost) one year old!! We went from broken hearted and empty arms to the most lovable little man that we could never have dreamed possible. Our life is just so full and I can't even imagine that in 3 1/2 months we will have another babe!!

I am rocking my babe now, I have so many things that I wanted to get done and I didn't. I wanted to have Arie's room clean and the playroom at least emptied out. Nope. I didn't even get his clothes hung up or his diapers stuffed. At least his diapers are all washed!

I don't even think I could sleep if I laid down. I have a big to do list that I'm going to be thinking about!!

Sunday, February 17, 2013

22 Weeks Pregnant w/#2

This week, Baby is: About a pound

How far along? 22 weeks pregnant!

Due date: 6.23.13

Maternity clothes? yes... I hate maternity clothes. My pants sag lol

Sleep: For the first time, sleep is really uncomfortable. My stomach gets hard and Arie kicks and I can't really find a really good supportive way to sleep with my back and my belly.  Bah... how is this already happening? 

Weight gain: +8lbs as of yesterday! 

Best moment this week: Saw outside kicks for the first time yesterday (I think not because this is the first time they were visible, but because it was the first time I had a minute to sit and relax.)  And, Jack felt the baby kick twice for the first time this morning!

Food cravings: Nothing really.

Movement: all the time

Symptoms: I have felt really good, and I knew that as soon as I started telling people that I was feeling great, things would start to go south. I almost threw up my breakfast this morning lol

Labor Signs: nope

Stretch Marks: yep, leftover stripes from Arie man

Swelling? Starting to swell a bit in my legs and ankles. :/ 

Belly Button in or out? in

What I miss: comfort

Feeling toward Pregnancy: Amazed.  This baby will be born before we know it. 

What I am looking forward to: Arie's birthday party next weekend!

Milestones: still tandem nursing, feeling baby move and almost to viability!! 

News: We decided to officially switch to a home birth, with Eileen. I could not be any more excited about it!

Belly Picture:

Friday, February 15, 2013

Arie is sleeping well

Arie is finally sleeping well, not needing constant work to keep him asleep the last few nights and somehow I have slipped in to the insomnia part of pregnancy. I've been up for two hours now and I can't shut my brain off. I'm kind of uncomfortable and there's nothing I can really do. I keep thinking about how I feel like I need another adjustment but that I never have gone twice in one week unless I had gotten hurt.

I am thinking about shopping for goodie bags for the kids that are coming to Arie's birthday party and that is really exciting.

I'm thinking about how crazy it is to have an almost 1 year old and to feel #2 kicking like crazy.

I'm thinking its really strange but pretty cool to refer to #2 as #2 and not know the sex of the baby. I also think its interesting that I thought I would be fine not to know last time and we found out for Jack, and it really is no big deal to not know. I will know soon enough and for the rest of my life, so what's a little longer to wait? And this coming from someone who hates surprises.

I'm thinking that I'm so excited about who is coming to Arie's birthday party. Some of Jack's friends I haven't seen in over a year and another family we haven't seen since Arie was less than a week old. I'm so excited to see everybody now and I'm so glad we are having a party.

I also now get why they say the first birthday party is more for the parents. We have hardly seen our friends at all in the past year, even our closest friends who had kids within a few months. Life just got so busy and it's limited with a baby and a bed time routine! I'm excited to see everyone and celebrate for me and Jack and surviving the first year.

I seriously can't believe how well he's been sleeping the last few nights. Maybe I'm used to very interrupted sleep so this couple hours of insomnia is caused by that.

It's not like I'm not exhausted by the end of the day, so I don't know why I'm not sleeping.

I'm thinking about how precious it is to be laying next to my sweet boy. He's such an angel and having him cuddled up next to me to sleep is just so sweet.

It also occurs to me that we will need a toddler rail for Jacks side of the bed too. I am positive we will end up with two in the bed and when Jack gets out of bed, a guard needs to go up on his side too. I don't even remember how much I paid for that rail. I like how it works no problem no matter what size bed!

It's funny to feel #2 kicking Arie as he's snuggled right up to my side.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Switching to home birth midwife

I know I wrote all about this last night, but Eileen emailed me her "intake" forms yesterday and now it's getting real!

I have to go get my files from my current midwife and I hate doing that. They always ask so many questions and that sucks and is awkward. Why do I want them? Because they're mine, who are you to even ask??

As far as I know, I'm planning to keep my March 7th appointment as well as my appointment with Eileen on March 4th.

I don't have a printer, so I need to find someone who does to print off these forms for me.

I need to call tomorrow and ask what will be necessary in getting a copy of my file, and if I will have to make two trips out there or if it can be consolidated to just one since its a 40-50 minute drive. I'm betting that they will require me to make two trips. I hate places like that.

I also need to remember to call and pay my ER co-pay from freaking November. I don't know why I sit on stuff like that.

I don't like waking up to change diapers and rock now because I wake up all the way and then I just mess around on my phone and Arie is totally back to sleep. Bahhh.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Big exciting news

My anxiety about having a birth center birth finally bubbled over today. I told Jack how all of my fears and issues with Arie's birth feel so fresh and that I feel like I was violated and I have a really hard time trusting an environment so close to a hospital to give me a different experience than the one I had.

I don't like a lot of little things about the birth center so far, like the mandatory orientation. I have better things to do with my time. They also want you to take some class that costs money and I refuse.

I also don't like their 24 hour time limit, that you have to be in active labor or else you are kicked out and headed to the hospital. I don't want to do the GBS test because I wouldn't accept iv antibiotics either way and I think that could be problematic as well.

Our tax return this year is right about what Eileen's fee is for a home birth and we decided to go for it.

I quickly sent Eileen a message to see if she could be my midwife instead of my doula and she said absolutely!! I'm so excited!!! I cried happy tears.

I'm so relieved about this. There is NO stress now about making sure to leave for the birth center at exactly the right time so that I'm far enough along to avoid interventions but not so far along that I might have the baby on the side of the road.

I'm excited that my mom can come to our house and Arie can stay at home and have the least stress possible put on him while I'm in labor, delivering, and recovering. There's no stress to want to hurry up and rush home.

There's no bags to pack. No suitcases worth of stuff. No stress about always being totally on top of Arie's laundry and diaper laundry in case that day was THE day.

I'm actually excited about the ease of including more people in the process, or being able to have a much more stress free process when it comes to other people.

I'm so happy to be able to prepare to birth in a stress and pressure free environment where I don't need to be fearful or tense about fighting off unnecessary interventions just because they are the way that doctor does it.

I am excited to grow closer with God and experience how He intended birth to be.

I'm so pumped about a water birth if that's what feels most comfortable at the time.

I'm excited about not worrying about who is watching our house or caring for our dogs and cat.

I'm excited for better pictures and to share this awesome experience with other people and hopefully empower other women and let them see that childbirth is awesome and not to be feared.

I'm glad to have a caregiver that I never have to worry if her advice is based on greed as an alterior motive. My needs will 100% be what she's thinking of. Not protocol, not liability, not what time she wants to rush out of there. She has a passion for healthy moms and healthy babies and I know she's there for me 100%.

I'm excited about having student doulas or midwives in training be there to learn and experience it too.

I'm excited about one big exciting birth party at my house. I can just picture lots of food and fresh baked goodies and ladies talking and having a great time waiting for the birth of number two... As opposed to nurses coming in to bother me and attempt to persuade me to start a cascade of intervention.

This will be an entirely different experience. It will be so much more exciting because I'm not a first time mom. There is no fear of the unknown of labor. I know that every labor can be different but at least I know that I will have a team of experienced support that knows exactly what's normal for an intervention free childbirth. I will have women who have seen and experienced it all and maybe other women who are there seeing it for the first time.

I feel so free by this decision. I'm so happy and so so excited for June. Baby party!!!!!

My first midwife appointment with Eileen is on March 4th and Jack will be going with me.

I have a midwife appointment at the practice on March 7th too that I had invited my mil to come to to see for herself what midwife care is like. I'm not sure if I'm going to keep seeing them, but I think Eileen recommended having concurrent care in case of an emergency.

The only problem is that I don't want their routine tests. :/ we will see. I will talk to Eileen and see what she says on the 4th!

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Feeling good and not so good

I have really been feeling great for a couple of weeks now. No nausea and food doesn't randomly attack my guts as often.

Then tonight I made fajitas with organic chicken and homemade tortillas. Maybe I ate too much, but my stomach has been hurting for the last two hours and it sucks.

Arie just about completely missed a nap today, so I'm nursing and rocking and he's already asleep at 7pm. (Why are all of my posts written at 7pm??) I laid down while Jack played with Arie in the bath and my stomach was so hard.

I finally took a gas-x soft gel and I'm hoping that alleviates this discomfort.

I'm not sure what Jack is doing, but I'm hoping Arie will stay asleep for the night.

I also bought a nursing/teething necklace for myself today from etsy that I'm pretty excited about.

Saturday, February 9, 2013

Birthday anatomy scan

My birthday was yesterday and it was amazing to be able to see that little babe in there. My due date was officially changed to June 23rd, so I'm 20 weeks and 4 days today.

Everything looked perfect with the baby and we were not told the sex of the baby. It was seriously the strangest thing to leave that ultrasound and not know definitively the sex of the baby.

It feels to me like the excitement that builds up for the 20 week ultrasound will be multiplied until 40 (or 37) weeks! I definitely prefer it this way and its really exciting.

Jack bought me a bunch of chocolate from Rocky Mountain Chocolate factory for my birthday and I have officially eaten my fill. I could go quite a while without eating chocolate again.

The midwife appointment was no big deal and everything checked out great. I wish my scale didnt run out of batteries because I can't weigh myself any more. I think I have gained about 5lbs from prepregnancy but I have no way to tell. The dr's scale has me up 5, but it was the middle of the day after breakfast and lunch, with a full bladder.

I have my next to midwife appointments scheduled as well.

It's hard to believe I have less than 20 weeks left.

Arie's birthday party is in two weeks, so I need to start thinking about food. I have a week until the rsvps are due. I only put my email on there so hopefully people will be more likely to actually RSVP.

It's 8:00pm and Arie is out. I'm rocking for a few minutes longer so he falls into a deep enough sleep before I move him into bed.

Seven on Saturday night

I already wrote this post once and went to turn on my white noise app and lost it. :(

It's 7:15 now on Saturday night and Arie is already sleeping. It's not surprising since he woke up at 7am today.

Tomorrow, for lunch, we are meeting my dad and Kelly at the Original House of Pancakes in Birmingham for lunch to celebrate my birthday. Jack and I are going to split a Dutch baby and I think Arie will have either French toast and fruit or bacon.

Jack painted two coats of primer on Arie's rocking horse today. It's going to look awesome!! It's going to dry for 24+ hours and then Jack can do the first coat of the white semi gloss paint. It's going to look amazing! I am going to buy a blue or red bandana to tie around the horse's neck, or both. It will be a hit at his birthday party! We also need to put together his tricycle.

I made pulled pork in the crockpot today and it was a success! I think I'm going to make it for Arie's birthday party because it is an easy way to feed a bunch of people. Plus cheaper than hot dogs or hamburgers.

For his birthday, I'm still trying to decide if I want to make cupcakes or make a sheet cake. For some reason I have been wanting to make a peanut butter cake and I can't/won't because Gunnar is so severely allergic to peanuts!

I have a chocolate cupcake recipe pinned on Pinterest. I have no idea yet how many people are actually coming to his party. People never RSVP! But, the RSVP by date isn't until the 14th, so I can figure this out then.

I'm not sure if I want to make or buy a cake or cupcakes. I think making would obviously be substantially cheaper and I'm sure it would be just fine.

21 Weeks Pregnant w/#2

This week, Baby is: 10.5" and 12.7oz! 
How far along? 20 Weeks and 6 days... Due date: Was given the official 6.23 due date on Wednesday :) Maternity clothes? yes. except for the occasional PJsSleep: Sleep is getting a lot better!Weight gain: I have no idea... my scale batteries died and then I replaced them and it won't turn on any more... I guess I have had it for almost 10 years, but that's still depressing. Best moment this week: Anatomy Scan... Saw a beautiful healthy baby.

Food cravings: nothing... For my birthday I wanted some Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory chocolate but it was more of a I want that and I am pregnant so I'm going to pig out, but I have no cravings.  
Movement: yup, all sorts.  I'm trying to time it so that Jack gets to feel too! Symptoms: It's been a good week! Barely any nausea at all, except after eating.  I have had 1 or 2 days this week where I felt like I was going to throw up in the morning, but was able to avoid it. Labor Signs: no, I have had 2 dreams now about my water breaking.  Last night I had a dream that my water broke and that I went back to bed.  Holy second time mom compared to first lolStretch Marks: yep, leftover stripes from Arie manSwelling? NoneBelly Button in or out? inWhat I miss: not muchFeeling toward Pregnancy: Still in total shock.  I think the scale is finally going up and even after 5 months of being pregnant, I guess I wasn't ready to see that after how much weight I lost after Arie.  It's a really strange mindset to try to convince my brain that I'm pregnant again and this is normal and good. What I am looking forward to: Arie's birthday party in 2 weeks!! Milestones: still tandem nursing, feeling baby moveNews: Midwife appointment went fabulously.  I think according to their scale I'm up 5lbs.  Of course that was in the middle of the day after drinking about 60 oz of water and eating breakfast and lunch... Everything is great and I'm really happy that my milk supply seems to be happily keeping up with Arie's demands.  He is finally starting to eat a lot more solid food and nursing a bit less.  It's weird that he has always nursed so much and now is slowing down.  It's still probably over 10 times a day which is more than the average 11 month old I think, but I'm sad that my baby is starting to wean!! :( He may continue for another year or more, who knows, but it's a really strange thing.  I also scheduled my next two midwife appointments which also feels crazy.  I think those are my last 2 that are 4 weeks apart, I  may have one more 4 weeks after that... so I have 24 weeks and 28 weeks scheduled.  I don't know if it goes to every 2 weeks at 30 weeks or if it's 32 weeks.  We shall see.  But if this baby is born at 38 weeks, that means I have 6 more appointments if there are no issues! 

Belly picture from today:
I feel like I'm starting to gain a little bit of weight in my love handles too.  Boooooooo.  I'm excited for June so I can start dropping weight again haha.  

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Birthday eve rambles

Yesterday, I took Arie to see Dr. Gage. I needed it badly and so did he, apparently. I asked the chiropractor if that could be why he's been sleeping so poorly and he said for sure, and he was right. Last night was one of his best nights of sleep in a long time. He slept soundly and only woke to nurse and never tossed and turned.

He's asleep already and it's only 7:45pm, but that's good because we have an early day tomorrow. We are meeting my Gramma for breakfast and then I have my anatomy scan and a midwife appointment immediately following.

I'm excited and nervous about not finding out the sex of this baby. I did hang out with Ashley today and she didn't find out last time or this time and she thinks its totally normal not to find out, so that was reassuring and encouraging. Plus, I really love how people think its crazy not to want to know!