Friday, May 31, 2013

My predicted delivery date

I have predicted that I will deliver on June 5th... For no other reason than that it means the babies will be exactly 15 months apart. June 5th is in 6 days. 

I am so close.  Even if this baby isn't born on June 5th, it's now May 31st and I'm due in June!! 

It is hard to believe, but it is still crazy to me that we are expecting another child. 

With how hard that has been for me to grasp, I feel like we should have found out the sex of the baby. 

I'm still not 100% sold on this Team Green experience that I wanted. Boy vs Girl doesn't change much but it seems like we would at least feel like this situation is more real. 

My pregnancy went by super super fast though, so it's really no big deal to wait, and I'm glad to have done it, just for the sake of saying that I did. 

Monday, May 27, 2013

So grateful for good friends

This morning I was chatting with my girlfriends, like I do every day, and I asked if they had any plans for the day. No one did.  

I invited them over for bratwurst and hotdogs on the grill & typical barbecue food. 

I can't even describe how blessed I am to have such good friends! They both brought cookies that I could eat!! 

I'm so thankful. 

Every Day it Gets Closer

I know I'm in the home stretch now. I know that most women are just so ready to have their babies by this point too. 

Physically, it is difficult to be this pregnant and care for a 1 year old. The chasing and bending are exhausting. Plus, Arie has been teething and the last few nights have been pretty rough. 

I find myself praying, "Please, Lord, not today!" daily at this point. 

I'm up rocking and dealing with a feverish congested baby already, we just can't handle a newborn in the mix yet. 

I have seen this all over, but I'm feeling the typical second time mom feelings about how I need to get in extra cuddles as this is precious little time that I have left with just one child. 

At this point too, I'm not really a fan of team green. This baby just feels so distant and maybe had we known baby's sex, we would have better been able to picture how things will change. Maybe just that one small thing would have helped a little. I don't know. 

We are so close at this point, there's no reason to give up now. Maybe that moment will be worth it. Maybe that moment will make it all real. (What a bizarre thing to think! Of course it will be REAL when I birth this child!!) 

I am ready to have my milk back with Arie. I'm hoping nursing two as my supply comes in gives me a super supply and that Arie fattens up a little bit. 

I wonder if number two is going to be long and thin like Arie or maybe this will be our pork chop baby. 

Jack took that this afternoon at his parents house. I can't explain my facial expression besides the sun :) 

I feel unbelievably huge at this point. I am about a pound under the weight I was when we conceived Arie, so 45 pounds less than when I delivered him! I don't understand why my stretch marks on my belly are getting longer! My poor skin! I hope I can bounce back!


Sunday, May 26, 2013

36 Weeks Pregnant w/#2

This week, Baby is:
17.2 to 18.7 inches long and 4.2 to 5.8lbs!!! 

How far along? 36 Weeks Pregnant!!

Due date: 6.23.13

Maternity clothes? yes... Baby dropping means my clothes are fitting differently again. It's getting warmer though and I'm out of clothes for hot weather that fit. I refuse to buy any more clothes. 

Sleep: Im sleeping when I can.

Weight gain: +29/30 ish

Best moment this week: hit the 36 week mark!! I'm hoping to keep baking this little bun, but 36 weeks means I can officially birth this baby at home!!! That's HUGE for me!

Food cravings: several times I've just wanted JUNK like Cheetos or some Dairy Queen style ice cream or some gas station candy. I whine to Jack but we just pass on by. I'm actually glad that so much trash "food" has dairy in it. 

Movement: All the time. 

Symptoms: I feel enormous. My belly feels stretched to the limit. I have no swelling or anything like that but it's pretty difficult to bend over and pick up Arie and carrying him for any length of time wears me out very quickly. 

Labor Signs: nothing serious! My goal is 10 more days ;) 

Stretch Marks: yep, leftover stripes from Arie man

Swelling? Nothing this week. Depending on which arm I sleep on, my hand will be swollen but it was like that not pregnant. My rings still fit comfortably and on my left hand, my rings are too big. I got my right hand ring sized right before I got pregnant and was waiting to drop a little more weight before getting my wedding rings. I plan to get them resized and soldered finally once I reach prepregnancy weight with this one. They also need to be re-rhodium dipped and polished badly. It seems pointless to do it before I have them sized and soldered though. 

Belly Button in or out? 99% flat and out. 

What I miss: room to breathe. Patience for Arie. 

Feeling toward Pregnancy: paranoid every single time I stand up that my water is going to break. Especially on my middle of the night bathroom breaks as that's how it happened with Arie. 

What I am looking forward to: Next midwife appointment. This one is at our house! 

Milestones: Still breast feeding. I feel like that should be in bold and in all capital letters because it truly is a challenge these days. I don't think there are words to describe how difficult it has become. With the combination of my lack of patience and irritability, along with my physical discomfort with any variation in latch incredibly uncomfortable and any weight across my belly incredibly uncomfortable... To say continuing is a challenge is an understatement. I'm way too damn stubborn to quit at this point as Arie was born in my 36th week. I'm literally at the finish line... But wow. Breast feeding through a whole pregnancy is hard work!!

Next week I am 37 weeks, but the biggest milestone this week is the 36 weeks, where I am allowed to deliver this baby at home!! I am happy to keep cooking, I know these weeks or days will FLY by, but for someone who is planning a home birth, hitting the green light for home birth feels awesome. 

News: went through the birth kit yesterday with my mom, she remarked on how small the box was. We went through the whole checklist from Eileen and only had a very small list of items left to pick up! I still need to pack my just in case hospital bag for baby & I. I really hope that I can unpack it at home never having used it. 

Also- our insurance changes on June 1st, so we would facing the biggest paperwork and coverage nightmare with our insurance coverage if this baby comes and we end up needing a hospital for any reason. Barf. 

I also had maternity photos done by my friend Krista on Friday! I'm excited to see how they turned out!! Krista is super talented. 

Thursday, May 23, 2013

So tired

It's Thursday night!! I'm so close to that finish line! 

Yesterday and today I have been unbelievably tired. Arie hasn't been napping well and I've been out & about all the time. I need to slow down but I just have so much I want to get done. 

With that Natural Parenting sale coming up on June 1st, I'm trying to get as much ready as possible to try to sell. 

We had a play date today and Ashley came over with Gunnar & Charlotte. It's crazy to think that in such a short time I will be having baby number two, too. 

Saturday, May 18, 2013

35 Weeks Pregnant w/#2

This week, Baby is:
17.2 to 18.7 inches long and 4.2 to 5.8lbs!!! 

How far along? 35 Weeks Pregnant!!

Due date: 6.23.13

Maternity clothes? yes... Definitely looking forward to enjoying a waist band in my real jeans again ;) 

Sleep: Im sleeping when I can. My mind is on overdrive now and when I'm up, I'm UP!

Weight gain: +27  

Best moment this week: really starting to be ready to hold this baby and find out who has been kicking me all this time! 

Food cravings: Nothing. 

Movement: All the time. 

Symptoms: I feel enormous. I am nesting like crazy. 

Labor Signs: nothing yet. I'm not ready. I want at least two more weeks please! 

Stretch Marks: yep, leftover stripes from Arie man

Swelling? Nothing too bad this week, my legs and ankles are swollen by the end of the day. 

Belly Button in or out? Mostly out to the point that my MIL commented on it. 

What I miss: room to breathe ;) 

Feeling toward Pregnancy: really excited for birth. 

What I am looking forward to: Next midwife appointment. This one is at our house! 

Milestones: Only a couple weeks left until I'm full term!! Still breastfeeding!!

News: birth kit came in the mail. Just need to gather all of the rest of the supplies this week. That's my plan. 

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Can't keep anything straight

I don't even know how to describe my state of mind these days because my vocabulary just doesn't include the right word. I don't ever know what day of the week it is, I have to write multiple lists for the simplest tasks to be completed and even then, it's still not guaranteed. 

I can't imagine how frustrating it is to try to communicate with me these days. 

I will be 35 weeks pregnant on Sunday and I just feel like there's just not enough time left. I have a bunch of ring slings that I would like to make for the natural parenting sale that I'm participating in on June 1st (at least, I think it's June first, who really knows lol) and I wanted to make 4 pacifier clips and a ton of cloth wipes. I feel like I have probably 4 solid days of sewing! 

Also, I've fallen in love with the woven wrap conversions into soft structures carriers. I made myself a Mei Tai when I was pregnant with Arie and it never was quite right. I'm attempting a woven Mei Tai with the wrap style ties. I got about 65% done with it tonight and then it was way after Arie's bedtime and it took everything in me to stop and take him to bed. 

I can't stop thinking about all the sewing I want to do. 

I also can't stop thinking about all of the cleaning that I want/need to do. 

Yesterday, I did a major upstairs clean. I organized and cleared out the whole upstairs. In doing so, while putting away all of the laundry, I noticed that Jack's clothes were in ROUGH shape. I went shopping today and bought him new underwear, socks and a new work shirt. 

I also bought Arie a new outfit which really was the last thing he needs, especially after getting all of his laundry done and hung up, he has so many clothes. If this baby is a girl, I don't even know what we will do with the massive amounts of clothing!! 

I am going to the chiropractor tomorrow and for the first time in a couple weeks, I really feel like I need the adjustment everywhere. My mom is going with me, so the chiropractor should be able to concentrate on me without worrying about chasing Arie around. 

I also have a midwife appointment tomorrow. 

Sunday, May 12, 2013

34 Weeks Pregnant w/#2

This week, Baby is:
17.2 to 18.7 inches long and 4.2 to 5.8lbs!!! 

How far along? 34 Weeks Pregnant!!

Due date: 6.23.13

Maternity clothes? yes... Definitely looking forward to enjoying a waist band in my real jeans again ;) 

Sleep: I guess I'm kind of sleeping! My hip and back pain is gone for the most part, as long as I strategically place my pillows. 

Weight gain: +25 maybe?? I'm just guessing at this point. It's been a while since I stepped on the scale. 

Best moment this week: My second Mother's Day was today. It's getting much more sweet and much less bitter every year. 

Food cravings: Nothing. I mentioned that I wanted chocolate cake this week and my mom requested that while she was here today and I went to bake my go-to dairy free chocolate cake. I forgot the leavening. Whoops. It was gross. Not even like a brownie. 

Movement: All the time. Hiccups and rolls more than kicks. 

Symptoms: A bit of heartburn this week and a lot more frequent Braxton hicks contractions. 

Labor Signs: just baby dropping but nothing serious. Chiropractor predicted 2-3 weeks left max. We will see!

Stretch Marks: yep, leftover stripes from Arie man

Swelling? Nothing too bad this week. 

Belly Button in or out? Still in! But definitely visible through my clothes 

What I miss: dairy and junk food lol

Feeling toward Pregnancy: really excited for birth. 

What I am looking forward to: Next midwife appointment. In the home stretch here.  

Milestones: Only a couple weeks left until I'm full term!! Still breastfeeding!!

News: ordered my supply kit on Friday and we brought home the birth pool from our home birth class. I'm really excited to have that here. Also, talked to my sister in law about the birth photography and she told me she will pack a bag. 

I forgot to take a belly picture, but I will tomorrow. 

Oh yea, we had maternity pictures scheduled for today but since Arie was throwing up, we decided not to do them. We rescheduled for about 2 weeks from now, so I better still be pregnant. 

We also have our top two boy names and top two girl names picked and we are pretty sure of them, but I think we need to wait and meet baby to be sure. 

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

This seems to be the theme of my pregnancy

It's called, "How is This Going to Work?"

Arie woke up to nurse about a half hour ago and it's not something I can sleep through any more. Thankfully, I don't have to get out of bed, but, it's just too uncomfortable now to doze off while he's latched. I don't know if he's getting lazy with his latch or if its pregnancy hormones, but I look forward to unlatching him every time he nurses at night.

I'm incredibly happy that I have been able to successfully breastfeed through this pregnancy, and I'm happy that its not appearing to affect him weaning prematurely.

Tonight, nursing woke me up more than usual. It's probably because I had to pee and I have to wake Jack up to do that in case Arie tries to follow me off the bed. The only reason I wake Jack up at night is to get up to pee and somehow he still needs a thorough explanation with usually wakes Arie up and completely defeats the point. I guess it could be worse but it kills me how deeply Jack sleeps at night, so deep that he has no clue why I'm waking him and pointing at Arie.

In some respects, I think it will be easier after having this baby because I won't have to pee in the middle of the night. But, how am I going to get out of bed to nurse number two without waking Arie? And if they are both going to sleep in our bed, how do I switch sides with nursing? Back to the theme, "How is This Going to Work?"

I bought Ina May's Birth Story movie and haven't had a chance to watch the whole thing. I have watched about one third of it so far, but had no time yesterday to finish it.

Today, I'm going to a La Leche League meeting at the group where I'm trying to decide if I want to start the steps to become a LLL Leader. I want to talk to the leader today and explain my emotions and frustrations of knowing what I'm talking about and dealing with people who just don't really want to try hard enough to make it work.

I should try to get back to sleep, the morning will come pretty fast.

Sunday, May 5, 2013

33 Weeks Pregnant w/#2!

This week, Baby is:
17.2 to 18.7 inches long and 4.2 to 5.8lbs!!!

How far along? 33 Weeks Pregnant!!

Due date: 6.23.13

Maternity clothes? yes... Definitely looking forward to enjoying a waist band in my real jeans again ;)

Sleep: I guess I'm kind of sleeping!

Weight gain: +21 I think? I'm not sure, I haven't weighed myself in a while.

Best moment this week: Got to hold two new baby girls!! Charlotte Rose born 5/3 and Lexie May born 3/22!

Food cravings: Nothing, missing dairy a little bit but usually only when other people eat it around me, like this morning when everyone enjoyed cinnamon rolls for breakfast.

Movement: Every day, I can identify some body parts. Definitely had a foot in my hand a little bit ago!

Symptoms: BAD hip and back pain! Heartburn a little bit too. I think this hip and back and sciatic pain are here for the duration. As long as I keep moving, I can deal, but if I have to slow or stop, that's when it hurts.

Labor Signs: no... Baby is definitely getting lower into my pelvis.

Stretch Marks: yep, leftover stripes from Arie man

Swelling? My feet have started to swell a bit by the end of the day.

Belly Button in or out? Still in!

What I miss: my jeans and regular clothing! Being able to move and sleep comfortably.

Feeling toward Pregnancy: after being in the hospital while my best friend delivered and hearing the story of my other friend's induction, I just keep feeling more and more confident and comfortable with a home birth. And excited and if it was possible, more sure that it is the right choice for us.

I'm so blessed to be pregnant again and so grateful that I have found a support team that wants me to have a successful home birth with no interventions in the quiet and peaceful and loving environment in which this child was conceived.

I feel really good except the hip and back pain that is to be expected, but I feel like I'm really taking care of myself a lot better and I'm just really hoping to make it to 37 weeks and beyond.

What I am looking forward to: Ordering HB supplies... Need to do that tomorrow!

Milestones: Only a couple weeks left until I'm full term!! Still breastfeeding!!!

News: not much new that I can think of :)

Road trip with cloth diapers

This is our second road trip with cloth diapers. It really is no big deal when you have access to a washing machine!

My friend had her second baby 6 weeks ago and we wanted to come meet the baby and take another little trip before our second baby came.

On Friday morning, we got up a little before 8 & I realized that it was the day of my best friend's c-section, so we were going to have to leave for Indiana a few hours later than planned.

We got all packed up and left the house and headed to target to grab some organic granola bars and Kroger for some organic fruit for the weekend and then we headed to the hospital to wait with the family for the news.

What an awesome experience, Ashley's husband, Eric, came out into the waiting room and announced, "It's a girl!!" So awesome!

After that we waited until Ashley & baby Charlotte were safely in recovery and we went in to visit. We stayed only a few minutes and I got a picture of Arie looking
very disapprovingly down at Charlotte.

We left the hospital and headed down to Indiana, arriving at about 8:30pm. Arie stayed up until 11 and we all finally crashed and went to bed. We took the kids to the park and hung out and enjoyed the day yesterday and took a 3 hour nap in the middle of the day. I also did my diaper laundry yesterday throughout the day.

Last night was another pretty late night and we got up at about 7:30 to get showered and packed and breakfast and we headed back home this morning.

Aside from being very pregnant and uncomfortable in the truck for that long, the trip was awesome. Arie was okay with me holding baby Lexie and he enjoyed playing with Braydon's huge toy stash.

It was mind boggling to be around a newborn again, especially because I will be there again so soon.

While Lexie slept in the living room, Jack commented that he didn't remember that stage of Arie's... I told him that's because I held him constantly. There was no sleeping in a cradle for that boy :P

In the end, I'm glad we took a weekend to go down there and meet the new baby while she's still a squish!

And, cloth diapering for the second time out of town was still no big deal. On the road for 6 hours is no different than being out all day with cloth, and my laundry routine stayed exactly the same and on the same schedule.